PLAYER

NAME: isa
CONTACT: phaseblast / discord: phaseblast
ABOUT YOU: australian, optician, mostly into video games! i have a huuuge weakness for otome games and i especially love yandere shit. i'm into a lot of japanese & korean media too! my hobbies are sporadic but i do art and music and all kinds of things. i got knocked the FUCK out by december (optical retail is hell around xmas) + january (got sick and then got covid for the first time! it was bad!) so i'm trying to get back on the wagon now 👍

CHARACTER

NAME: rudbeckia de borgia
CANON: how to win my husband over
FACTION | ASPECT: meridian | stargazer
GIVE US A BLURB ABOUT THEM!: isekai transmigration rofan protagonist whose previous & current lives are a mirror of each other and they are both intense nightmares. she's been violently abused and controlled since childhood, and has developed into someone desperate to please others in order to minimise the harm she receives. hence she is a huge manipulative liar, but rarely for any kind of gain—she just really, truly expects everyone around her to hurt, kill, or abandon her inevitably.

GENERAL PLANS:

✦ ruby has officially reached the point where she absolutely despises both sides of the conflict. she's sick of everyone's shit!!! because of this, she's sort of... given up on building connections for herself? she'll still play cute, mostly, but she is no longer seeking useful lifelines.
✦ she will, of course, continue acting as set's high priestess. she bought him wedding rings, that's her husband now. ♥ with the war ramping up, she's not entirely sure what to do with that particular role, and she's not opposed to suggestions. (that don't involve her having to get involved in the actual war.)
✦ other than set, the safety of her monsters is pretty much the only thing she gives a damn about these days. their safety is one of her main priorities, which includes having a place for them to live.
✦ she miiight have a canon update in her future... it's not a pleasant one and she will go a little bit insane, but. i'm holding onto that one until the timing is right!

EVENT SPECIFIC PLANS::

✦ LEAVE HER OUTTA THIS. she will be completely avoiding everything to do with both the assassination and the weapon. none of her business! she doesn't even wanna hear about it!
✦ however, she lives in the beyond with the monsters she's befriended as well as her husband-deity set, which means this is. a little bit of a problem for her. depending on what set tells her to do, she might be moving out of the forest for a little while...
✦ which might mean. evacuating her little guys? help??? they are her little guys and they are also large people-eating creatures and they have to be protected
✦ she also figures she should do some kind of set pr as his priestess, but because of her neutrality clause, that will very much not involve talking about the meridian victory here. she'll focus on people affected in springstar; her "duty" is to assist those affected by conflict, the peace-bearer as balance to set's chaos and war.

CR WISHES:

✦ ruby is a tricky character: 90% of the time, she will not make friends. when she does make friends, it's often a shallow relationship from her side—she's completely incapable of trusting that others will stick their necks out for her when it comes down to it, so she won't allow herself to be put in that situation to begin with.
✦ but she will pretend to feel otherwise. you can totally build positive cr with her! it's just... possibly one-sided. she may, at best, feel vaguely friendly towards someone. (or you might be lucky enough to somehow break through and get genuine feelings?! I'M OPEN TO IT!! IT'S JUST HARD)
✦ in terms of what she offers, ruby is a great representative for neutrality in kenos: a civilian that can't and won't fight, and deeply resents the idea that she should have to do so just because she exists here. she can be a fun moral dilemma for some characters, and challenge the views of even well-meaning ones!
✦ in fact i love that conflict most of all. as a character, ruby shines best when she is put in difficult situations, when she is hated by others, when people try to push her into corners and pick fights. negative cr is great for her with the understanding that she will never, ever fight back, only swallow her seething hatred and resign herself to the worst outcome.
✦ as for what i want... she's pretty well on her way there?! after some fights with other meri, the fallout of the oracle & springstar turning on her, her self-inflicted death - she's reaching a point where the persona she used to uphold is beginning to wear thin, and she has plenty of solid cr that are seeing new sides of her. so i'm totally happy to wing it at the moment! give me new things and old things!

ANYTHING ELSE?: i don't have any new ones but this one is especially relevant right now