( eventually, it might occur to marc that he's spent their entire meeting being difficult and exceptionally unappreciative, but in the meantime the atmosphere between hangs awkward and tense; and the look he gives her when she says they'd be able to hear him is wary and slightly doubtful, not because he doesn't believe her but because he doesn't know what he'd be doing — yelling into a void? broadcasting to everyone? would they get his feelings, too? his and steven's and jake's? it's discomforting to consider, so he quashes it deep down to the bottom of his chest to worry about later.
marc has a lot of questions, but none of them are any he wants to ask someone that doesn't know him. he wants to wash his hands and clean his clothes, pull himself together a little bit more because none of this makes any sense, not really. lottie's given him answers, but they're ""answers"", things that he still needs to make heads and tails of alongside the rest of his life. he still needs to put everything together and work out how much he thinks is real and true, and how much could be anything in-between. )
No. ( questions, he means, but also the rest of it. it's a blanket answer and he almost leaves it just at that before—.
right. ) I'll be fine, thank you. ( he can be capable of manners and politeness, mostly when he takes the time to think about it. ) I need to shower.
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marc has a lot of questions, but none of them are any he wants to ask someone that doesn't know him. he wants to wash his hands and clean his clothes, pull himself together a little bit more because none of this makes any sense, not really. lottie's given him answers, but they're ""answers"", things that he still needs to make heads and tails of alongside the rest of his life. he still needs to put everything together and work out how much he thinks is real and true, and how much could be anything in-between. )
No. ( questions, he means, but also the rest of it. it's a blanket answer and he almost leaves it just at that before—.
right. ) I'll be fine, thank you. ( he can be capable of manners and politeness, mostly when he takes the time to think about it. ) I need to shower.