... Not really, but I don't want to let the food you made go to waste.
[ It's a miracle that Kaeya manages to keep his voice steady. After hearing Diluc say that he won't leave him, he feels a surge of emotions that is quite difficult to keep at bay. Bitterness sits at the very top of it, clamouring to be set free, to be known, because this isn't the first time Diluc promised him the same thing. This isn't the first time Kaeya will believe every word of it, and thenβ
(For a brief moment, he remembers a sword set ablaze with fire. The heavy patter of rain. A voice begging another. Please. Just listen to me. I choseβ)
So he eats his second sandwich, while he continues to lean against Diluc. Not quite wanting to move.
Diluc might be able to tell that he's experiencing a sudden drop in mood, but if asked about it, Kaeya will blame it on exhaustion. Which isn't really a lie. Now that he's thinking about it, he doesn't remember how long he slept last night (if at all), so maybe heading to bed after he finishes his food will do him some good.
He falls silent for the time being, choosing to eat rather than voice any of his thoughts out loud. ]
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[ It's a miracle that Kaeya manages to keep his voice steady. After hearing Diluc say that he won't leave him, he feels a surge of emotions that is quite difficult to keep at bay. Bitterness sits at the very top of it, clamouring to be set free, to be known, because this isn't the first time Diluc promised him the same thing. This isn't the first time Kaeya will believe every word of it, and thenβ
(For a brief moment, he remembers a sword set ablaze with fire. The heavy patter of rain. A voice begging another. Please. Just listen to me. I choseβ)
So he eats his second sandwich, while he continues to lean against Diluc. Not quite wanting to move.
Diluc might be able to tell that he's experiencing a sudden drop in mood, but if asked about it, Kaeya will blame it on exhaustion. Which isn't really a lie. Now that he's thinking about it, he doesn't remember how long he slept last night (if at all), so maybe heading to bed after he finishes his food will do him some good.
He falls silent for the time being, choosing to eat rather than voice any of his thoughts out loud. ]